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| Currently in love with Root Beer |
Fourth semester is going to end soon.
Saturday 11st is my last class and I decided to skip it because I have something important to do.
There're many things happened during this fourth semester.
There's good and bad memories because this semester we have to work our assignments mostly in a group.
Of course we're from different family with different culture.
Sometimes it doesn't match each other and create a miscommunication.
I believe we all do want to have a nice teamwork and give our best to finish the assignments given.
But I do want to apologize to all of my friends for wrong things I've done especially for my group-mates.
I realize sometimes my joke is too much and hurt other's feelings.
Sometimes I demand too much and troubling the others.
I feel it's quite hard for me to approach some of my friends to clear all the things.
Maybe it's just me who think too much or being emotional.
I can't just approach them to tell my true feelings and sort it out because I'm afraid they will misunderstand and gets angrier.
I thought I'm all okay.
I thought I don't have anyone who doesn't like me.
But I was wrong and that's why I apologize here.
I'm a coward to approach them.
But I do feels sorry and I will try to think more carefully before I act and talk.
And thank you for your hard works, thank you for keep standing with me till the end so that we can finish our works.
I'm sorry if I didn't do much on certain parts because I know I'm not capable doing it.
There are good memories about team works I've done with my friends.
Like when we have to stay late to do our work. I thank you for your commitments.
The best memories is when we're at BiElDi to do our assignments, it was raining and we decided to go home and continue it later.
You my friend who brings another bike, we had nice teamwork to help each other.
It was a good memories and I hope we can build a nice relationship for the future.
I don't mind if you come to me and tell me that there's something about me that troubling you.
I'm still learning too~
I realize that sometimes I nag too much because I think I'm a perfectionist in certain area.
And I do realize that sometimes it becomes really annoying.
I also can't improvise with impromptu plans because I have reasons :
- My house is quite far from the campus.
- The traffic is really random, sometimes it can be jams everywhere but I really try to be on time. That's why I need minimal 2 hours prior notice if you ask me to come. I spend minimal 45 minutes to reach the campus with normal traffic.
- I'm currently working somewhere voluntarily and usually I always prioritize what I've promised to do.
That's why sometimes I ask too much about places and time because I (feel) that I have limited time.
Also I do appreciate for those who come on time because I try to do the same to you.
Coming on time means that you really appreciate me and my time.
So thank you for those who kept coming on time and those who gave me prior notice with reasonable reasons if they're going to be late.
Once again, thank you and I'm sorry for all the wrong things I've done. Thank you very much.
Well, recently I'm thinking about my future.
Time flies fast that now I'm about to have my 5th semester (well, of course there's still about 3 months holiday).
I think I'm not ready for the future.
It's mainly because I keep thinking about it too much.
What's on my mind currently is about... death.
The thought that someday your parents will leave you.
I thought that I will never be able to be independent and it makes me sad about it.
So I guess I will try to love my parents more through my actions towards them.
I'm currently listening to I'm in Love by Narsha.
I'm not falling in love tough. (Well, I am falling in love with ROOT BEERS!)
The song is really nice to be played when you're working on your assignments or just chilling out.
I thank God for everything.
He guides me so I can reach my home safely.
I can do good things because of Him.
But blame me if I do something bad because it means that I start leaving Him.
Final Exams!
God speed!
