LoL! Lesson of Life?

Yes, I'm running from my papers.

The mid semester ends today!

It ended on Friday 22nd for me though. Yohoo!

I'm planning to go out with my two KARET this Monday and I have just realized that I have many papers to do. *sigh*

On Sunday I've promised one of my friend to go to an event, but I came home late and there's no much time to get ready and go because my house is quite far away, so I cancelled it and just sleep because Sunday is just too tiring for me.

I woke up at about 23.00 and checked my phone, and there was a message from my friend telling me to do a part of our group project and swoosh!  I remember every paper I have to do.

And now I had read few but my worksheet is still blank....

Anyway, I'm going to write about some of my thoughts.

It's not wrong to listen to parents' words because first, they're older than you and wiser.

Second, they had so much experience and they mostly know how to handle certain situation, they know how to solve certain problem they've experienced.

Third, they know you since you're born.  They know all about you although they can't know what exactly you're thinking but they can guess it and it's right sometimes.

But...

Should I listen to someone who nags constantly?

a man tells a blind to go few steps forward. will the blind do what the man tell if he knows that the man close his eyes because he doesn't want to see?
a child tells his parents how to fix the car.will the father do as his child says to fix their broken car?

What I'm thinking is..
How can you listen to someone that tell you to do this and don't do that but the person itself keep doing that and doesn't want to do this.
For example if someone tells you not to smoke but he keeps smoking, isn't it just weird?
Maybe we will say that smoking is personal choice, it's okay.  Maybe that someone just don't want the other suffer like itself because he can't stop smoking and his health is getting worse.
But what if we get advice from someone in our life, like making an important decision that we can't know the risks yet.
Like a man tells a blind to go forward but he himself doesn't want to see what's in front of him and close his eyes.
Why the blind man has to believe the man who doesn't want to see?
Of course the blind will ask advice from someone who opens their eyes and know what's in front of him.

Then for me, I will listen advices from everyone, but I will choose what I will do by myself.
Can you believe someone's advice that doesn't really know you?
I mean they only talk what they know without knowing what you're facing now, it's rather hard to be done.
Like a child who tells his parents how to fix the car, maybe his father will find something true from what the child says, but the child is still young, he doesn't know anything about car and machinery.
So I can say his father will listen what his children says, but won't do as he says because he knows more than his little child.

We have to be humble and listen to people's advice, moreover from parents' but actually it's our right to decide.
And of course we have to be responsible for everything we have decide.

I did take a side because of one big problem.
And now my view changed because of something had happened.
And I think what I did is right, because I can see what I've been struggling for is not worth it.
I took side with him, but he didn't show any effort to solve the problem.
I better waste my time, my energy for someone who's really struggling now.

Making commitment is easy, but hard to keep.I'm keeping my promise , I want to stay faithful.Cause I know that someday I will be noticed if I keep doing it.And I hope I can get what I deserve.

March please be nice!

It's March already and I had already miss one of my resolutions.

I'm not used to doing strict daily rountine.  I sleep whenever I feel sleepy, I eat whenever I want, etc.

I'm so strict to myself (and of course I'm lazy), I want everything to be perfect but if there's something wrong in the middle, I will lose hope and stop doing it because I can't make it perfect.

One more days until my favorite singer's birthday! :)
It's tomorrow!  The ninth!

Wish I can meet her someday personally and listen to her sing.

So I keep listening boys around me cussing and sometimes I'm not used to it.

I used to be in a community where they rarely using rude words, of course it affected me much.

They helped me to stop cursing, but as I become a student there're so many people and of course some of them really like cursing or use rude words to end their sentence.

And being unstable, of course I have to admit now that it's affecting me..quite much.

Then I think, it's not only to be used as my excuse to curse but..

A sword is dangerous, why?  Because it can be used to hurt people, to stab and kill people.

But a fruit knife or any other knife that our mom usually use to process foods in the kitchen can also be used to hurt people too.

What I mean is, there're rude words and good words.  It only show us how educated people.

A well educated man will speak carefully, and who uses bad words is the opposite.

But then how about ugly?
It can hurt people's feeling to.

So I think it's not the words that good or bad, it's us..the one who used it.
As long we have good intentions, I think there won't be any problems.
Well, that's just my opinion.

Actually I wanted to post this on 1st March, but I was too sleepy and didn't push the publish button instead saving it =.=a

Now I feel sleepy too, but I really going to post it!
Yesterday there're much things happened and it somehow chang my perceptions towards few things.
What I really want now is a humble heart.
I know I'm being too proud now, but now I realized..
Being prideful is like building a high tower for yourself using empty cardboard, the more arrogant you are, the higher tower you build.
And of course, it will be harder when you fall because you build it using empty cardboard, strong wind can blow anytime and that will be the one that make you fall.

Having a quite complicated problem now, and I guess I already knew the answer.
But of course, because it's complicated it means that there're a lot things to consider.
It makes me (and the other people) confused because it involves our interests.
May we be wise enought to decide, DMP is hard!

I'm sorry and thank you...

I'm back!  Yes!  After quite a long time! :)

The forth semester has begun and I don't know if I can survive...

I felt really down in the first semester, and felt better after the second and finally gain my confidence in the third semester.  But now....  I don't know...  I need a long holiday!

By the way, I have told you about my blood type.  Yes, I'm an O type.

After browsing for quite a long time, I found a comic that illustrates every characteristics of each blood type.

It can be true or false, but it's based on a research done in Japan or something like that.

Today I talk about our future partner with my friends while doing our ASSignments.  They asked me about what will I do when I have a boyfriend.

I honestly haven't thought about it, maybe I will change to be more girlier(?) or maybe I will stay the same.  But the comic above maybe will represents what will my relationships be in the future...but who knows.. :D

Okay, enough about that relationships thingy (since maybe all the singles might be a little sensitive when Valentine Day is nearing).

What I can say is, you don't need to have someone to be your valentine on 14th of Feb.  Just be more patient for everyone out there who's waiting for their true love..brohohoho~

Enough, I'm going to talk about this illustration (or you can say, comic)

As you can see, the O type tends to look for the third party to vent their anger.  It can help them to de-stress, but also make the other people become exhausted.

I have just realized about this maybe a month ago.

Me and my mother are the only O type and sometimes if my mother have any problem outside or if my little bro and sist don't do what my mom have said, she will be angry.

And she always tell me about everything that makes her angry.

Actually I have no problem listening to others' if it can help them to de-stress or help them to give some advice.  

I used to have friends calling me at 12 AM only to talk to me although we will meet at school later, and I have no problem with it.  As long as I can help, why not?

But recently it makes me exhausted.  

Someone has been telling me her story and I always feel exhausted after finish listening to her.

Her?

It's my mother.

Why?

Because it feels like my mother is being angry to me when she is telling me about her problems.

So I quite agree about this comic and start thinking by myself because maybe I have that someone where I can tell everything and vent my anger to him/her to de-stress myself.

I have been thinking about it for a week.  Well, I just want to say thanks, for being my friend where I can tell you everything about me.  Thanks to my friends that always force me for my own goodness.  And I feel sorry if I make him/her (since I haven't realized the person) exhausted with my story.

Oh yeah, I'm now learning Chinese.  I hope I can make this chance to learn everything while I can.  At least I can talk a normal daily conversation as soon as possible.

Actually now I'm feeling tired and quite dizzy.

Had just back from a lesson and then start helping my mom while a irresponsible one is having holiday tomorrow but do nothing to help.

Too tired and it's hard to sleep.

Haven't done some assignments, haven't read some reading materials.  KILL ME!

That's enough for today, I think I will be listening to Norah Jones' The Long Day Is Over all day.

The song is just relaxing and simple.

Wan an! :)

My Resolution? 1080x720....

First post in 2013!  Happy (late) new year! 

Actually I'm bored since now I'm having my quite long holiday, yay!

Being nocturnal, I try to do something like playing games on Facebook or just browsing random stuffs.

And of course, I'm not in productive mode during holiday, so I just spend my night (since I sleep during days) eating potato chips and drinking soft drinks (stomach, I'm sorry...)

So, this is a new beginning!  I made some resolutions (more like to-do list) this year.

I'm not doing it like last year, posting it through my facebook and hoping it would motivate me but yeah...as you all know, in the end I couldn't do it because I'm too lazy.

So this year I decided just to make a simple to-do list because every great things begins with just a small step right?  

I don't want to aim for big things because I know I don't have enough will to do it.

Here's my goal this year :

1. Save my money at least 100.000 a month.
   Why?  Because I spent too much last year.
   I had my savings from the angpao(s) I received and the remainings of my payment since I quited the job I had on the first semester.
   But there are some things that make me so stressed and I end up spending it for watching movies and eating tasty foods.
   I had to endure spending Christmas and New Year without having tasty foods because I don't have any money left.
   I SPEND IT ALL AND I DON'T REGRET IT! HAHAHAHAHA!
   
   So this year I will try to save some money so I will be able to spend it for something important (like buying snacks for the Christmas and New Year).
   Well, if it's possible, maybe I can use my savings for buying new guitar or accessories later~  I don't know, but right now I want to save my money!  REALLY!
   My wallet is empty (not really since few days ago my grandma gave me some money, thanks grandma!).
   I hope I can discipline myself and become rich at the end of the year..MUHAHAHAHA!
   
2. Grow nails.
   Yeah...  I want to have a long fingernails, I had a bad habit because I love to peel my nails off.
   I never had long fingernails at least 5 of 10 fingers.
   That's why my fingernails always short and sometimes bleeding badly, so I think I have to grow my nail and endure the urge to peel it off.
   I have to stop it because having bleeding fingers is sometimes annoying.
   The second reason is because someone keep asking me to play the guitar at random ocassion and I often forgot to bring the guitar pick with me so I think I will play better with long nails (remembering that my fingers bleed badly the last time I had to play guitar with a steel strings).
   So, the second to-do list is abot my fingers and fingernails!
   
3. Finish reading Bible. 
   I have post it in 2011 as my resolution but I can't do it for long since it's boring (I have to admit it's hard for me to read bible everyday, even if the lecturers give some reading materials, I will only read it once without paying much attention).
   It's now 4th January 2013 and I've been reading what I have to read.  I don't know why I can do this, maybe it's because I'm so bored so I try to do something I rarely do (hope it won't stop even if the holiday has ended).
   I was also think about doing sport since I rarely go outside because I'm too lazy and all I do is just sleep, eat, play PC, eat, sleep, eat, sleep, and that's all.
   But...yeah, I'm just TOOOOO lazy.
   
4. Help my parents.
   It doesn't mean that I didn't help my parents during 2012.
   I want to force myself to help my parents doing their job, or maybe some small things that will help them or make them happy.
   I realize that family (parents) is the most important things for me as I get older (well, I'm 19 going on 20).
   They accept me as who I am, support me a lot, take a really good care of me.
   I felt a little bit sad when they ask me carefully to help them because they're really busy, I used to become really angry when they asked me because I was tired after having a busy day with my study and later I felt really sorry because they became so careful with their words and actions towards you.
   And after that incident I just think that to help means that you have to sacrifice something you have like the time, energy, thoughts, or other material things for someone.
   I now think that helping your parents means that you're willing to help them although you're having something important to do.  Family comes first!
   So I have to sacrifice my free-time which usually I spend it by sleeping or playing the PC to help my parents.
   Although it's tiring and sometimes boring, I want to lighten their burden.
   And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men; (Colossians 3:23 KJV)
   It explains everything right?
   The first reason to help our parents is because they are our parents who loves us.
   The second is because we help them not only for our parents but also we do everything for the Lord.  We can't separate our spiritual life from our daily life, it has to be seen as one.
   That's why sometimes I don't like people who goes to church more often and pay no attention to their family.
   Well, that's just my opinion.

So I guess that's all.  I haven't thought of something to do this year, but of course I want to get better in everything I do.

And now I want to share the song which I think are good.

1. Yohio - Sky Limit ; and Our Story.  You can search his Music Video.  Yes, he's a guy but he looks more girly than me!  For me, it's quite weird to see his MV but I really love Sky Limit and Our Story!
   
2. Linkin Park - The Messenger.  The song is just nice.  End of the story.
   
3. Girls' Generation - IGAB/I Got A Boy (and it means that the whole album is good!) [SOSHI COMEBACK SOSHI DAEBAK!]
    I personally like Lost In Love because it's the duet between Taeyeon and Tiffany.  Taeyeon is my favorite singer and Tiffany's is my second bias in SNSD I guess?
   Romantic St. is good too~!  I love the intro and it's a good song to listen while you're doing your paper or anything.
   I love Promise too~ because of Taeyeon's sweet voice (as always) and it's RnB feeling.  I have to admit that I'm not good to guess the genre.
   And lastly of course I Got A Boy! (I will stop after this because I will recommend all of them if I keep going).  Why I Got A Boy?  Because of Taeyeon!  And well, the music is different from the other songs like The Boys, Gee, etc.  The MV is pretty cool tooo~ They don't wear heels and they dance more powerful!
   

   

   Baby Ellena, my niece~ <3

Well, that's enough for now!

I hope this year will be a wonderful year where we all can be a better person and I hope I can get more money on CNY :P

By the way, have you thought that someday our parents will leave us?  I don't know... it was my random thought when I was having a conversation with my parents and when I think about it.....  I become really worried of losing them.  So I want to make them happy while I still have time.

Be grateful, try to be thankful even though it's just small things before the time teach us how to be thankful.  That's why I made a long list of what I'm thankful for during 2012.  And I will do it for this year too~

Jehovah Rapha, The Lord is my Healer.  He's the Healer of my troubles, sicknesses, and my souls.  Jehovah Jireh, The Lord is my Provider.  Jehovah Shalom, The Lord is our Peace.  Let Your will be done.  <3 M & U! :)

 

Me out~

Standing Egg.

Sunday morning and I skipped church.

I was planning to stay awake after (nearly) finished my paper because I had been sleeping all day on Saturday.  

But I fell asleep at about 4.00 and of course when my mom wakes me up, I could not wake up and decided to sleep.  

I was so sleepy and of course when we are tired, we act accordingly to our body (well maybe it's only me who lacks of determination).

Yes Taeyeon, you're my little star..
Hope she will sing Little Star someday
since she's my fav singer.

Sigh.

Fortunately I sent a message to my brother asking him to buy me i-Cup's Green Tea Green Apple and Green Tea Kiwi with rainbow jelly.  

It tastes really good!

Thank God I can work on my paper without much difficulties(or maybe I just did it because I do not know what to do anymore, I'm suck at making paper *cry silently*

Okay, I have been searching about Urban Zakapa after listening to "Just The Two of Us" and I found so many good song by Urban Zakapa!  

But when I was in the middle searching for more, my friend suggest me to look for Standing Egg.  

It's a strange name right?  

But after listening to one of their song, I fell in love with the male voice!

And one of the reason why I fell asleep is because I was listening to Little Star by Standing Egg.  

It is nice and the male voice just like singing lullaby for you so you can sleep peacefully.  

And after I wake up, I searched for the lyrics.  

So this is the lyric's translation :

Close your eyes and listen carefully to my story

Before my story ends, you will dream

Little star tonight

All night, I will watch over you

When I first met you, it was truly eye-blinding

When I first saw your smile, I felt like I had the whole world

Little star tonight

All night, I will watch over you

When I see you fast asleep in my arms

I can’t take my eyes off you for a second

You’re so pretty – I feel like my breath will stop

How can I fall asleep?

My love, my everything, my angel from heaven

My two eyes, my world – you stole them all

Little star tonight

All night, I will watch over you

When I see you fast asleep in my arms

I can’t take my eyes off you for a second

You’re so pretty – I feel like my breath will stop

How can I fall asleep?

Close your eyes and listen carefully to my story

Before my story ends, you will dream

Little star tonight

All night, I will watch over you

My love tonight

All night, I will watch over you

All night, I will watch over you

(cr: popgasa.com)

See?  This is a lullaby, a romantic one to be precise.  

Well for those who already have boyfriend, you can imagine your boyfriend sing this song to you while playing guitar.  

But for me, I imagine that I sing this song to my niece or nephew while she/he is going to sleep or sing it while hugging a pug let it to sleep in my embrace (if you ask why, because I want a pug as a pet and pug is just too cute! :3).

So, because I am a subjective person, if I like one of the song (USUALLY) I will like it all.

one pack just for my bangs..and it's still brownish
maybe I need more...

I like all of Standing Egg's song (well, maybe not all because I'm not finish searching) because it's all relaxing and it's good to play if while you're doing your homework (it works well with me because I can finish one of my paper).

And this Little Star is good to listen before you sleep.  Sleep well! :P

The second term of mid-test is on Monday, and I have to prepare myself.

But the paper is so stressing, so I relieve my stress by......bleaching my bangs.

I know it is a weird way to relieve the stress, but that's how I do it! Having my hair cut or dyeing it will relieve my stress.  Moreover I love to express myself through my hair.

Looks alay? Never mind!  I love it! :)

Random Post : My Tour Beats by Dre.

Mine! 

 Okay, long time no see?  I'm doing one of many assignments but I decided to write this since my head really hurts after reading so much.  I'm doubting my choice entering IR (again..).

So, because I lost my original earphone for my iTouch (Still wondering did I drop it? Or did the maid steal it from me?  Okay, positive thinking!  Maybe careless me really drop it somewhere...  Goodbye good earphone! *silently cried*), I brought this tour with me today to campus since I had to stay at campus quite long and life is boring without music.

This is the second (I think..) thing I bought with my own money, my own salary after I bought my precious Angry Birds bed sheet so it will match with my Angry Birds blanket (it's 'balmut' actually.)

I bought it because it's cable is unique.  And I have many earphones and having trouble with its cable because it tangles easily.  So when I saw this Tour Beats, I think it's unique.  I like the color and design, also the cable because it's not tangled easily.  I like this!

But of course, after seeing the price...  It's expensive.

So I decided to bury the dream of having this earphone.

White and Black(and red) beats.

Maybe it's the fate(?) that my beloved cousin showed me his new Tour to me the next month.  It's the OEM version, he said.  Okay, since I'm not an expert so I can't differentiate the genuine or the fake one. And I'm still confused with the definition of OEM.  Let's say because I tried the in-earphone and I thought it's good, also the price is not too expensive (I mean, I can afford myself.) so I decided to buy it.

Many people said that it's not a good earphone.  But for me it's perfect.

It seals completely when I listen to the music so I can't hear the sound from outside and the bass is enough for me.  I'm not audiophile, an expert, or anything.  But its sound, its shape is perfect for me so I bought it.  Although yes, I can't use it while sleeping because it will hurts when I'm leaning on my side.

I also bought the white one for my brother as a present on his birthday.  At first when I bought mine, he was like jealous and told me that mine is not good.  There is something better than this.  But I bought one for him, hide it under his pillow.  And when he found it, he felt really happy.  and...nearly cried? :P Admit it bro, you love it, don't you?  If not, then I will gladly take it back!  *evil laugh*

Comparison

 So...  Yeah..  After getting the white Tour I was hesitating because the white one is also beautiful. And I was thinking that I could keep it by myself (of course, since it's bought with my own money I have the right to keep it right?) but I decided to give it to bro, according to my early intention bought the white one.

So...  After some time, I ask my bro to switch the earpiece.  The white earpiece is so tempting, so finally I asked him and he agreed.  We switch, he has the black one while I'm having the white earpiece and I'm using it now.

And later..  I was kinda...  awkward?  Because me and my brother used to have same things.  Like my iTouch.  My bro has it too.  Although he has 32GB iTouch while mine is 64GB (and I don't feel the memory is enough since I often put random songs and videos.)  We used to have match shirts at the elementary, etc.

Mine(left), Bro's(right)

And I'm thinking what to buy for my little sister, I have bought her couple key chain (for me and my little sister) because we're look alike and can't be apart.

I used to go quite far and every time I go she always fell sick.  Poor her.  Although now she's really really (sometimes actually) annoying.  I still love her and I want to give her something.  It feels nice as an older sister to be able to make my lil' bro-sist happy.  Also feels great too to have your parents happy. Right?

Actually I'm feeling not well now.  And I think I wrote this badly.  My neck hurts since few days ago.  I can't concentrate driving if it continues like this.  I skip my BIHI too this morning because I had extreme headache and decided to get more sleep, hoped the headache would go away but it's not.

There will be important event at the end of the month and I'm not feeling well..  I hope everything will go well....

Comparing...  Again.

The Earpieces

Donating Blood.

I think it was 14 April 2011, where I still in highschool.

A white van entered our school and that's when I had my first experience in donating blood.

So I went with my friends to donate our blood because I was 18 and it means that I'm allowed to donate my blood.  

We were really curious about donating blood because of course we haven't experienced it before (except for those who had their blood taken for the test.  I used to have my blood taken to, but it was when I still 5 maybe?).

First we have to fill a form about ourselves whether we have allergies, or any diseases that will prevent us from donating blood because it will be dangerous for the receiver later.

After filling the form, I went to check my weight, blood-pressure, and my blood type.

The officer cleaned the tip of my ring finger and put something like pen then "click", I felt a sting then I saw my finger bleeding quite much.

The officer took it carefully to check the hemoglobin and my blood type.

I was sure that my blood type is B because my mother said that.  And I love checking the characteristic of "B" type people and I thought.. YES, I'm a blood B.

But the officer says that I'm an O-type, it means that I get the same as my mom who says that I'm a B-type.

(Mom, I had lived my 18 years thinking that I'm a B-type!  Feels like an eagle who lives with the chicken and doesn't know that it can fly high because it's eagle!  Not a chicken!  I'm an O-type!  Not a B-type!  LOL!  I'm exaggerating it. ;))

After knowing my blood type, and qualified to donate blood, they gave me a...what I should call it?  Blood bags?  It's written an O-type with positive rhesus.  I wait for my turn to donate blood because it was quite crowded.  After some time, I became more and more nervous.  What if it hurts like when we get an injection?

Although worrying about the pain, my turn had come and I slowly walk to the chair.

Another officer greeted me, and asking me whether I'm afraid of needles or not.

"No.", I said.

She then tried to find my vein, but after some time, she still couldn't find it even she tried on my other hand and it's still hard to find.

She finally able to see a little and decided to clean the area where she would jab the needle.

Fortunate me, she's a skillful one.  One of my friend whined because the officer who took his blood is still a newbie.  She inserted the needle a little bit slow and her hands were shaky, making it painful for my friend.

The needle inserted into my vein and the blood start pouring out.  I'm amazed to see the crimson red blood, my own blood flowing out from my body to the blood-bag near the chair on a digital scale.

Well, it hurts earlier, but it doesn't hurt at all when the blood is flowing out (except you keep moving your arm so the needle won't stay still).

I finished a little bit late because the officer said that my blood is hard to come out, even she used the tool to measure blood pressure a few times (which left few red marks on my upper hand after it) and asking me to pump it by making my hand into a fist then open it and do it again a few times.

Finally the blood bag was full and she cut it before letting another cc of my blood to use it as a sample.

I don't feel anything wrong and happily receive the delicious food provided by the school and the PMI.

That day I felt really happy, don't know why but I felt really happy because I feel like I'm able to give something, to help someone in need.